26th May

We had our first big fallout today. Brinley apparently told people (that I do not like) about my fabulous vibrator. Betrayal of trust. Blahblah. I cried and felt crap, he felt crap so in the end we both apologised and its all good.

It was so depressing. I had my fat day today with ben and jerrys, gillians and a rip roll. I played pokemon till about 3 because I  knew I was going to sleep in.

Day 89/367

Most of today was depressing, I felt really tired and I missed Brinley loads. I did some revision and went to sleep. I talked to the Ex and he was way depresso (sorry for spending a whole year dissapointing you etc.) so I was comforting him and said don't you dare wallow in self pity because at some points we did have a good relationship and stuff. I told him how I initally fancied him as he put himself across as confident and interesting over the internet and he said oh cheers.

Ugh I'm annoyed at mum- she wont let me go out and meet Brinley when he's arriving back from Ornkey at 10pm (which is pretty late but still).