9th June

I can't remember what happened today because I havn't done my blog in a week but it involved the gym and probably not a lot else...

ohh dearr...

8th June

First day of proper timetable, most of the classes are good but I got told off by the psycho art teacher who hates me already. Oh dear.

Me and this girl Kate are totally bums. She even invited me to her party...I'm becoming a popular! Oh dear, I'm shit scared of two of them, a bitch called Catherine and this other girl I barely speak to. But another friend Alice is going so it should be all good.

I also have no idea what to buy Kate.

I had an obese day today. RED day (1200+ calories) but I went to the gym anyway, I plan to start working out for longer too unless I have studying or homework.

7th June

Today was even worse for boringness, I kept almost falling asleep. The best part was this exercise for communication and you had to talk at someone for 5 minutes or be talked at. Unfortunately I ripped a hole in my tights just as this chavvy boy I slightly fancy who I think slightly fancies came over and became my partner. Even more unfortunately I had hairy legs and he saw them through my holey tights.

Oh dear.

I also did the worst fake tan job ever on my arms. I left HUGE white patches.

I had quite a fat day and missed Brinley like loads, which was probably the cause of my fat day. I should stop relating food with emotions.

6th June

Today was a shite and boring-as-hell day of nothing but PRESENTATIONS on how we are going to fail unless we work our butts off in 5th year.

I saw Brinley afterwords and that was lovely we're totally no tensionned now. His hair looks so funny  non stuck up, but that boy is TIDY.

We went to the gym and I wasn't hungry mostly (probably because of the revolting fat days the days before) and ate 668 calories, which means GOLD day (-700 calories)

5th June

Today was pretty pants. After about 3 hours sleep I was grumpy so much untill I had a shower- the perfect cure.

We tidyed up for ages and went to the park and lay in the sun for a bit but there was still some tension between me and Brinley.

He stayed till like 9 and mum took him home, nothing else much happened that day apart from walking across town to Matalan and hearing a random banjo being played out the train conducter person's window.

4th June

I went out with Shannon during the day and spent loads of money on food. We met up with a huge group of people and I got a free subway from someone.

Later me and Brinley came back and for a treat for him I stripped naked apart from my high socks and a shirt. And we had VERY good and rough sex which was amazing because we were allowed to make noise.

We didn't do much till everyone else came round and then we started eating food and watching horrors, which was all good untill Freddi jokingly made a move on me and Brinley shoved him too hard and I went in a grump so he wandered off on his own which was worrying. We sorted it out and resolved it by agreeing that we'd come and talk to each other and I wouldn't ignore him if I was grumpy. I saw tears and that was very very bad I didn't realise how much I'd hurted him.

We came back and the rest of the night wasn't great because we didn't sleep together for the whole night untill the morning and he played pranks on people which I didn't want to happen.

3rd June

Brinley slept round. It was too hot to cuddle though which sucked. We were both pretty grumpy at each other throughout the day. We went to the park and flopped for a bit, and then met up with friends and I spent the lat of my EMAS bought £10 worth of 4 pants, a cami and thigh high socks from Matalan.

I felt fat because Brinley wouldn't carry me. I mean, I shouldn't assume he'd carry me but it's just nice sometimes to feel femenin and thin.

I grumped at him some more but we both agreed it would be better tomorrow because we'll have slept and everything. Monster movie night tomorrow, woop woop!

I found out Brinley apparently has a savings account of £40,000 for when he's older. I asked mum if that was normal and she said no. I got angry because sometimes he say's he doesn't get a lot of money and shit so I lend him and dont ask for it back.

If I didn't have EMAS I'd be screwed. Ugh. Grumpage.

2nd June

Brinley was at school all day but the rest of us went to the beach.

I felt guilty after the monster pigout yesterday but I was still wore my bikini. It was such a lovely day.

Afterwords I showered and went to meet Jess and everyone else at a restraunt for her tea. I had 1 pizza slice, 2 chicken skewers and a pudding and I was SO FULL.

My tea+ Jess' chip-in  cost about £19.

I missed Brinley so much that I took a bus to lossie (I got ogled a lot and a creepy old man started talking to me but I ignored him).

Brinley was very happy and we did some urgent snogging. We got home and had some VERY good sex till I think  mum woke up and we stopped so we just went to sleep.

1st June

Today was my graph comm exam and I barely concentrated at all. I don't care though I don't mind if I do fail. Afterwords we went to the gym but i CBA so so much. We came home and went to Leah's and I ate like a monster fatman. I ate half a jar of peanut butter.

31st May

I woke up next to that lovely boy but had to walk with him to the bus station at like 8am. Afterwords I came back and slept for about a year. Then I walked Sunny (who was bad) and met  up with Ben and Nikky and found out I got my EMAS. Woop woop! Brinley came back and I bought all my fake tan, body spray etc etc etc.

We met up with people (and this knob called Ross) and I made everyone pasta. Ross is such a dick. I asked my mum to stage a phone call to get rid of him but it was VERY transparent. I dont really care though. Asshole.

Everyone stayed for ages which was nice and I dyed my hair (which made no difference, I did leave it on for ages though but at least I no longer have roots). I LOVE BRINLEY SO MUCH. I kind of neglected him today but oh well. Saturday= Movie night and Thursday= Jess' dinner night. Much happiness.

Graph Comm exam tomorrow, sigh.

30th May

I tought Primary kiddies drama today, and that was great but very challanging.  I got such a headache

Brinley came round and we went to the gym (addicted now)

After that we went to Leah's house for AGES and talked about loads and loads and loads of stuff and I finally told someone my deep dark secret that a weirdass sac with its own blood supply came out in my period after I missed the pill for a few days. God help her if she tells anyone.

Brinley slept round, we didn't even bone we just watched the end of Black Swan and cuddled and he fell asleep. It's so nice sleeping next to someone you love.

29th May

That morning was very cold. We got up at like 7am to get some breakfast in the house. (Thank god I don't live far away.) We came back and cuddled then I got brought a muffin which was lovely then we put the tent down (I was in shorts. It was very cold.)

Afterwords we said we'd cuddle in my bed for maybe 10 minutes and slept for an hour an a half. The rest of the camping guys came in the lounge and we talked for ages which was good. After that we went to Asda and I felt the hangover coming on. I bought a Game of Thrones and a nice top and shortbreads and we sat outside on some display garden chairs.

We went to Jacob's and then went home. All good.

28th May

Today a woman had a fit. It was so scary to watch it was completely INSANE. Mum looked after her and I realised how proud of her I was just then.

I went to Jess' at 5 with my other bummers and we had a GREAT time and had a wee sesh. I got pretty darn tipsy. Nothing much happened apart from never ending happiness, and then I met  up with Brinley and I apparently would shag him there and then if he hadn't of stopped me.

I sobered up by the time we got to the monument beside our house- our camping destination. After putting up the tent there was  some rough shegging undertaken, but then we went into the other tent and played Strip Dares. Much nakedness and lesbian kissing. I was only in underwear (and a thong but that was concealed under the duvet me and a very naked Brinley were sharing), but people seen my boobs and congratulated me on them.

Afterwords we went back to the tent and slept. Brinley got grumpy because he was very cold and tired. I saved his friend William from hypothermia by letting him in our tent.

27th May

I slept in till about 3pm today in a wave of depression from yesterday.

I phoned Brinley and arranged to meet him later. I went for lunch with my mum and my cousins and it was awkward which was just dandy.

I went to Brinley's house and we're back to normal now and had  important makeup sex which was very good for him.

26th May

We had our first big fallout today. Brinley apparently told people (that I do not like) about my fabulous vibrator. Betrayal of trust. Blahblah. I cried and felt crap, he felt crap so in the end we both apologised and its all good.

It was so depressing. I had my fat day today with ben and jerrys, gillians and a rip roll. I played pokemon till about 3 because I  knew I was going to sleep in.

25th May

Gym today was good. I'm starting to become a fanatic and really enjoy it. I might even go tomorrow even if Brinley's not. Maybe.

Me and him had our first tiny fall out. I came home from the gym and slept and he got grumpy (I think) and said he should've stayed home which made me feel crap. But then I said I'm really sorry and stuff so we're all good and we had a great boning sesh that took ages and was lovely.

24th May

I went up town with Shannon and spent £30 on

Facepowder
Faketan
White shorts
Tuna wrap
Nail varnish
Juice

It's so nice going mental with money

Well I'm not a chav at all. We came back and faketanned to the max and both looked like black people.

Afterwords I saw Brinley for a bit so that was good.

23rd May

I was meant to go up town today but it was such shit weather outside I slept in till about 12.

Mum's still not on proper talking terms with me. I'm not going to cave. I meant what I said.

Brinley came round and we went to the gym and I'm starting to enjoy it, woowoo!
I've lost two balls off both my wrist piercings. Meh.

So we came back and chatted for ages about pubic hair and he gave me a massage and we talked about sex and getting pressured. I realised that I had been pressured with the Ex. It left me with a weird feeling.

I've eaten between 800-900 calories today and my stomach's making funny noises. I'td be better if I ate between 600-800 but oh well. I'm getting an 18 calorie icelolly.

22nd May

I went to my Granny's for lunch today. My grandad's starting to really forget things. It's heartbreaking.

Dad finally bought me a TV today- it's HUGE in my room! 22inch with a DVD player. Mega chuft! Not so chuft I can't get music channels though. Agh!

I saw Brinley for like half an hour when his mum went to Tesco. Loveage.

I took a raj at mum because she bought a huge pack of kitkats and ate 4 strawberry tarts. I called her selfish because we're going to Canada in less than 2 months.

Ugh. My guidance teacher once said that obese people eat themselves to suicide. I think that could possibly be true.

21st May

Brinley took me on a date to see Pirates of the Caribbean today. I spent about an hour laborously cutting out hearts of chicken and ham and cubing vegetables to put on skewers for his tea.

I wore this high waisted 50's skirt and pearls. Now that is making an effort. Brinley said I looked the gorgeousest he'd ever seen me.  POTC was good I didn't understand it too much it's not as good as the last ones.

So we came home and ate tea and went upstairs and cuddled like, loads and lay on my bed and had slow, romantic sex which was lovely. I love him so much. I never knew I could love anyone as much, it's insane.

I'm on a bit of a downer right now though, I've just eating LOADS. Ughhh, want to puke but I'd freak out. And I don't want to become bulimic.