23rd May

I was meant to go up town today but it was such shit weather outside I slept in till about 12.

Mum's still not on proper talking terms with me. I'm not going to cave. I meant what I said.

Brinley came round and we went to the gym and I'm starting to enjoy it, woowoo!
I've lost two balls off both my wrist piercings. Meh.

So we came back and chatted for ages about pubic hair and he gave me a massage and we talked about sex and getting pressured. I realised that I had been pressured with the Ex. It left me with a weird feeling.

I've eaten between 800-900 calories today and my stomach's making funny noises. I'td be better if I ate between 600-800 but oh well. I'm getting an 18 calorie icelolly.

Day 125/367

I wanted to stay inside all day today but I got pressured to go outside by Brinley. We met up with some other friends and went on the pedalos in the park.

We came home and boned loads. It was great until my sister called me to say bye to my dad and I had to hug him when I was commando under my shorts and tshirt. And sweaty and dishevelled. Then Dad wanted to shake my hand...the same hand I'd been tossing Brinley off with. Oh dear.

Mum said I felt very hot and should keep hydrated.

The sex wasn't as good as it could've been because we couldn't make any noise.

Day 104/367

I felt like such a mong today. I felt a little bit angry at Brinley for yesterday when he kept trying to make me do stuff when I was so obviously not in the mood. But we met up with him and some other friends later and first I was a little bit cold with him to see if he'd still hug and kiss me and be nice even if we wernt just in private which he did.

And he smelt good.

What made my day even better was apparently this guy checked me out and Brinley's friends told Brinley and then he went protective of me. And one of his bandmates William likes me which is good.

I do love Brinley. Lovelove.