22nd May

I went to my Granny's for lunch today. My grandad's starting to really forget things. It's heartbreaking.

Dad finally bought me a TV today- it's HUGE in my room! 22inch with a DVD player. Mega chuft! Not so chuft I can't get music channels though. Agh!

I saw Brinley for like half an hour when his mum went to Tesco. Loveage.

I took a raj at mum because she bought a huge pack of kitkats and ate 4 strawberry tarts. I called her selfish because we're going to Canada in less than 2 months.

Ugh. My guidance teacher once said that obese people eat themselves to suicide. I think that could possibly be true.

15th May

Me and Shannon didn't really do a lot all morning, watched Scooby Doo, Fingertips and some other kid's tv, I had a shower and fake tanned, ate cate, cleaned up. I felt sick and tired and headachey. Is that a hangover? Possibly.

Mum came home and was uber tired and Dad kept being bad so I had to throw him out even though he'd bought us tea. (Which I didn't feel was very fair that I had to do even though it was mum who wanted him out.)

I watched pokemon and did bugger all for the rest of the day and phoned Brinley for ages (who is sitll rubbing in I double booked him yesterday with Shannon when I already said I would see him) but I'll see him tomorrow so it's all good.

Day 125/367

I wanted to stay inside all day today but I got pressured to go outside by Brinley. We met up with some other friends and went on the pedalos in the park.

We came home and boned loads. It was great until my sister called me to say bye to my dad and I had to hug him when I was commando under my shorts and tshirt. And sweaty and dishevelled. Then Dad wanted to shake my hand...the same hand I'd been tossing Brinley off with. Oh dear.

Mum said I felt very hot and should keep hydrated.

The sex wasn't as good as it could've been because we couldn't make any noise.

Day 109/367

I actually revised. For about an hour. Then I gave up.

Brinley kept mollestering me and then I teased him because he said he wouldn't mollest me so I took my top and bra off and went up to him massaging my boobs.

I wore a belt round my waist for the whole of last night and most of today and my waist went down to 24/25 inches instead of 26 and I wore my supertight muse tshirt when I went to see Scream 4 with Brinley and his friends. I think I looked hot. Both of his friends hugged my when I was saying bye too. Hoped I felt skinny/booby.

Oh god, I feel really bad about Dad. I saw him for the first time in about 2 weeks today and I won't be seeing him tomorrow because I'm going to Brinley's instead of seeing my granny and grandad AND I missed last Sunday with them too. I told Dad it was because I was revising.

I shouldn't feel too bad about that today. He's so socially retarded. He burps really loudly in public and talks about people when they're within earshot. Ugh.

Day 49/367

I wore shorts today. In first period I sat down and the Girl-That-I-Hate checked out the size of my thighs so obviously it was unbelievable. She actually turned her head down and looked at them. I was happy with my outfit though. Shorts, rocketdog pumps and highlights of red on my nails and my cami.

My French teacher keeps having sex with his desk. He sort of thrusts himself onto it and presses his winkie against the corner.

I'm starting to be uber-healthy tomorrow and even made 3 posters: Drink Water, Eat 2+ things of fruit 'n' veg and aim to weigh 9 stone or less.

I told my dad I was hungry today and he got all stressed because he didn't know what to do or say to me. Haha aww poor dad!

Robyn subtly persuaded the Ex to consider going back out with me....hmm I hope it works..