4th June

I went out with Shannon during the day and spent loads of money on food. We met up with a huge group of people and I got a free subway from someone.

Later me and Brinley came back and for a treat for him I stripped naked apart from my high socks and a shirt. And we had VERY good and rough sex which was amazing because we were allowed to make noise.

We didn't do much till everyone else came round and then we started eating food and watching horrors, which was all good untill Freddi jokingly made a move on me and Brinley shoved him too hard and I went in a grump so he wandered off on his own which was worrying. We sorted it out and resolved it by agreeing that we'd come and talk to each other and I wouldn't ignore him if I was grumpy. I saw tears and that was very very bad I didn't realise how much I'd hurted him.

We came back and the rest of the night wasn't great because we didn't sleep together for the whole night untill the morning and he played pranks on people which I didn't want to happen.

2nd June

Brinley was at school all day but the rest of us went to the beach.

I felt guilty after the monster pigout yesterday but I was still wore my bikini. It was such a lovely day.

Afterwords I showered and went to meet Jess and everyone else at a restraunt for her tea. I had 1 pizza slice, 2 chicken skewers and a pudding and I was SO FULL.

My tea+ Jess' chip-in  cost about £19.

I missed Brinley so much that I took a bus to lossie (I got ogled a lot and a creepy old man started talking to me but I ignored him).

Brinley was very happy and we did some urgent snogging. We got home and had some VERY good sex till I think  mum woke up and we stopped so we just went to sleep.

27th May

I slept in till about 3pm today in a wave of depression from yesterday.

I phoned Brinley and arranged to meet him later. I went for lunch with my mum and my cousins and it was awkward which was just dandy.

I went to Brinley's house and we're back to normal now and had  important makeup sex which was very good for him.

25th May

Gym today was good. I'm starting to become a fanatic and really enjoy it. I might even go tomorrow even if Brinley's not. Maybe.

Me and him had our first tiny fall out. I came home from the gym and slept and he got grumpy (I think) and said he should've stayed home which made me feel crap. But then I said I'm really sorry and stuff so we're all good and we had a great boning sesh that took ages and was lovely.

23rd May

I was meant to go up town today but it was such shit weather outside I slept in till about 12.

Mum's still not on proper talking terms with me. I'm not going to cave. I meant what I said.

Brinley came round and we went to the gym and I'm starting to enjoy it, woowoo!
I've lost two balls off both my wrist piercings. Meh.

So we came back and chatted for ages about pubic hair and he gave me a massage and we talked about sex and getting pressured. I realised that I had been pressured with the Ex. It left me with a weird feeling.

I've eaten between 800-900 calories today and my stomach's making funny noises. I'td be better if I ate between 600-800 but oh well. I'm getting an 18 calorie icelolly.

21st May

Brinley took me on a date to see Pirates of the Caribbean today. I spent about an hour laborously cutting out hearts of chicken and ham and cubing vegetables to put on skewers for his tea.

I wore this high waisted 50's skirt and pearls. Now that is making an effort. Brinley said I looked the gorgeousest he'd ever seen me.  POTC was good I didn't understand it too much it's not as good as the last ones.

So we came home and ate tea and went upstairs and cuddled like, loads and lay on my bed and had slow, romantic sex which was lovely. I love him so much. I never knew I could love anyone as much, it's insane.

I'm on a bit of a downer right now though, I've just eating LOADS. Ughhh, want to puke but I'd freak out. And I don't want to become bulimic.

Day 131/367

Biology exam went a lot better than I thought it would. I wore a skirt. Big mistake. Buttdances, visible-butcheek scares and goddamn THONGS (no VPL). Ugh. Stress.

Brinley came round and it was all good. I keep getting really emotional after boning. I feel like I'm not perfect. Chubbs, ingrown hairs, the lot. It's great. I'm getting a headache from mums bug too. Great fun.

Really CBA with the exam tomorrow, modern studies. Ughughugh.

Day 128/367

We woke up at 10:30 and did loads of english revision. I showered and felt better.

Brinley came round later and we had possibly the best sex so far. It was lovely and romantic and I came 4 times. I felt guilty towards mum though. I've been not a very nice daughter recently.

English tomorrow and I'm shitting bricks. Wanna get two 1s.

Day 126/367

I was on FIRE at maths tutor today. I felt really bad for her because she'd been doing maths all day with everyone and she had to take headache pills.

I imagined when I saw Brinley he'd want to bone so I invited Jacob over to cockblock. This worked pretty well. I'm pretty annoyed at Brinley because even being wanted all the time feels hot it makes me feel like he only wants me for sex.

I told him that on MSN and he was worried I was mad at him and I said he has to be able to tell better when I'm not in the mood so it's all good now.

Maths exam tomorrow. Great fun!

Day 125/367

I wanted to stay inside all day today but I got pressured to go outside by Brinley. We met up with some other friends and went on the pedalos in the park.

We came home and boned loads. It was great until my sister called me to say bye to my dad and I had to hug him when I was commando under my shorts and tshirt. And sweaty and dishevelled. Then Dad wanted to shake my hand...the same hand I'd been tossing Brinley off with. Oh dear.

Mum said I felt very hot and should keep hydrated.

The sex wasn't as good as it could've been because we couldn't make any noise.

Day 124/367

We got 5 hours sleep today. I had chocolate for breakfast.

We got home and did some damn good boning until my mum came home. Brinley's a positions virgin so he's getting educated. Because we couldnt make noise he was going to come on my boobs but missed and came in my eye and up my wall instead. It was so UNCOMFORTABLE! It didn't sting as I expected it would but it made my eye go well red.

After he left I slept for about a year.

Later my friend who I'm pretty wary of (she's got a friend-with-benefits and flirts with EVERYONE including Brinley. FML.) was like 'Have yous done the dirty!?' I don't know who told her. I don't mind people knowing but I just dont trust that girl not to twist it or something if I do tell her.

Day 123/367

Today was good, me and Jacob came round and I shoved my hair in this weird topknot coming out of my head to make volume and toothpaste on my spots and then Brinley came round suddenly.

Ugh.

I put makeup on and we went to cooper park for a bit and then on the way back we met up with Brinley's band and they all came round to my house and we had an amazing fajitta and doctor who sesh. Owen, the band's vocalist gave me a crotchal hug, and specifically made another guy hold his guitar so he could hug me. Hmm. We did have a Muse bonding jam with me on piano and him on guitar though. And I said he looked awesome earlier today because he had a fedora and glasses. He's not hot and I fancy the pants off Brinley (literally).

Everyone went home apart from me and Brinley and we fell asleep on my bed and then went to Jacob's for a sleepover....We boned a tiny bit in the night...not even fully in but a teaser for the time when we properly bone.

I ate like a whale. I'm suprised I'm not fat.

Day 122/367

We boned.

After 1 month and 4 days.

He got scared that mum or someone would walk in and got soft. I felt so sorry for him!

Today's brought us closer though. He said he was into corsets and I was like WTF I LOVE CORSETS AND ALL THAT SHIT. Our next sexy time is going to be SUPER. I need to wax. I'm like a forest out of control. I got handcuffed today. It'd be better if I was hair-free and more comfortable though.

I hate my sister so much. I think she heard some of our 'revision' today. Great fun. I dont care though. I've stopped caring what she thinks. She showed Brinley her tattoo on her side today when there was an equally good tattoo on her innocent wrist. She said my hoodie was tight fitting on him too, e.g, he was fat. Which he's not. Even though his 12 stone squashes me if he's lying on top of me but MY stomachs flabbier than his when I pinch the skin together.

Hate her so much UGH.

I might go to a party woop woop tomorrow with Brinley. Planning on boobs OOT and heels. Gotta make that boy PROTECTIVE!

Day 118/367

1 month anniversary of me and Brinley today.

We almost boned again. Crazy, crazy shit! I've found one thing I don't like about him, how he goes on about how good he is in subjects. I feel like such a retard. Especially when he said he could've taken Higher Art because he was getting straight 1s but he never.

Ugh.

The day was beautiful apart from that. I'm truely madly deeply in lurveee!

Day 116/367

Me and Shannon had a rather boring day today.

Then I met up with Brinley and his friend William and Brinley was being a bit of an ass but then I accidently made him fall over and that made it ok. We went to my house and I ate food and then William stayed for ages to cockblock Brinley. He went away giving us like 15 minutes. I told Brinley how I didn't like him being an ass and that he neglected me at the Youth Cafe and now it's so much better.

I'm in LURVEEE!

He got me a toy bunny for easter and his parents got me an egg. :)

I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!

We had a crazy kissing session on my bed. It must've made a lot of noise but it was like how it would be like when we're gonna bone. I told him if he doesn't wank for a week he'll get a prize. Oh dearrrr. I shouldn't of said that because he thinks it's sex that the prize is. Ohh well. Maybe I'll be ready by then. :)

Day 110/367

I spent all day at Brinley's house today. I liked my outfit, I ran out of clothes so I tucked my large PJ top into my high waisters and shoved my hair in a messy bun.

I saw his room for the first time. I don't like it, it's full of....stuff...that's like, old and not used which I find very strange. We went to a river and I went in but he didn't. His mum made us DINNER I was like holy shit. A jacket potato and tuna and like, salad and coleslaw and potato salad on the side it was pretty immense. I gave him another BJ aswell. I also swallowed. It was well saltier than the Ex's. The Ex only eats shit though so that's probably why. That stuff is lethal.

That's good though. I can stop Brinley's sexual advances by asking him to take a wank instead. I'm planning, possibly, just maybe to do the black shag band on our 1 month anniversary, 25th April. (It's a monday though....gotta see if mum's gonna be out or not though.)

Day 107/367

Me and Brinley were very close to sex today. The only thing stopping it was my hand covering. Crazy shit. I wore my sexy red thong and felt sexy in it. He made me orgasm 2 times from fingering.

I had a dream I cheated on Brinley with the Ex. I felt disgusted at myself all day. I really don't  like the Ex.

I feel really weird right now. I feel ugly. Brinley's friends apprently said 'paperbag' when he first went out with me. That makes me want to get a hot body even more to have at least one good thing about. Feel like such an emo right now. Weird feeling of wanting to be emo and cut. WTF? I don't even do that.

I don't usually care what people say about me. I mean, someone said I looked like a rat on formspring and I wasn't even bothered.

I don't know why that got to me so much. Probably because I thought I liked Brinley's friends. He said they took it back when they saw me and said I was hot and had good boobs.
Maybe I'm just having a mood swing.

I still havn't done any revision. It's Brinley's fault because if I hadn't gone out with him then I'd've been revising all holiday.

Ugh.

Day 101/367

Not a lot happened today.

I hair-remove-creamed my sexy forests.

I'm not ready for sex with Brinley. Technically I'd be a paedophile which is a bit strange, and even stranger I feel like I'm taking away his virginity? The first (and only) time he ever boned he got caught so, to me, it feels like that doesn't count and he's still a virgin.

It has to be special.

And VERY good. Memorable.

Day 100/367

The 100th day.

I need to enrich this blog with more stuff that happens, but normally I write it just when I'm about to go to bed.

So approximately half a year of no action I give a BJ and get poked 2 times all in one day.

I'm in love.(I said I love you for the first time too today) Brinley is SO much more masculine and overally more HOT than the Ex ever was. And he's got a bigger shlong. And he said I was good at BJs. (his last girlfriend's braces got caught on him apparently. That doesn't really say if I am good at BJs or not but oh well.)

I look like a victim of domestic abuse because I have 5 raging hickeys on my boobs.

I broke the black shag band.

Black = Sex.

Day 93/367

Today was super. We went to the Youth Cafe and Brinley was there. We kissed like LOADS and we went outside and I said I had a stiff nip and he felt my boob and said yes you do and got a boner. I think he's got a big shlong.

Oh god. I totally said something I shouldn'tve. We were arguing over which shag band I should snap (there was options of Blue- BJ and Black-sex) and STUPIDLY I said 'I'm happy with anything'.

Oh dear.

I'm not realy for shegs with him. After 1 week? No way. Maybe a BJ at most. See what happens on Saturday when I go round to his house....dundundun!