19th May

I didn't do anything all day. Then in the evening I went to the Youth Cafe and made friends with a bunch of people I dont know, one of which was hot.

Brinley got paranoid about the guy who I thought was hot (I didn't mention what I thought of him even so). It feels nice to be jealous of.

Brinley slept over which was nice because we ate and talked and boned a bit and I had a dream about the polish boy who spanked my ass ages ago.

Day 121/367

I got grumpy at Brinley again at the youth cafe. He kind of neglected me again but not as much as the first time. I think I was just suffering exam stress which is making me over sensative. This girl Alice was getting in about him aswell. They did a crotchal hug. (Normally when friends hug only the upper body makes contact. If it's a romantic hug crotches and legs touch.) Alice looked round to see if I was watching too. Great fun.

I came home and we talked on msn and I told him that I felt rejected and stuff. We sorted that out and I said to him I dont want to get hurt by him because I was still hurting (in some perverse sense, I dislike the Ex so much now) from my previous relationship and he said he was feeling exactly the same.

So it's all good now.

Day 116/367

Me and Shannon had a rather boring day today.

Then I met up with Brinley and his friend William and Brinley was being a bit of an ass but then I accidently made him fall over and that made it ok. We went to my house and I ate food and then William stayed for ages to cockblock Brinley. He went away giving us like 15 minutes. I told Brinley how I didn't like him being an ass and that he neglected me at the Youth Cafe and now it's so much better.

I'm in LURVEEE!

He got me a toy bunny for easter and his parents got me an egg. :)

I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!

We had a crazy kissing session on my bed. It must've made a lot of noise but it was like how it would be like when we're gonna bone. I told him if he doesn't wank for a week he'll get a prize. Oh dearrrr. I shouldn't of said that because he thinks it's sex that the prize is. Ohh well. Maybe I'll be ready by then. :)

Day 115/367

Me and Jacob revised in the sun most of the day and then went inside and mum bought us a Macdonalds. Happy happy happy! We discussed Brinley's lack of commitment on the phone aswell as yesterday at the Youth Cafe.

I realised I was scared of him just using me for sexy stuff. I'll see him tomorrow and talk about it to him though.

The Ex was completely BITCH today. He's writing a blog about me.

And he asked me what another word for 'predictable' is and I said..

'You're such a bitch, you're writing a blog about me and you're asking me what another word for predictable is?'
He replied 'Why do you think I'm writing a blog about you?'

What a retarded question. Like his last million statuses of 'I'm writing a blog and it's about YOU!!!' never made me even consider he was writing a blog about me, who he said himself was the most important person in his life?
I wanted to reply something nasty about him being a dumbass and a fucking little poof etc etc, but I just replied:

'Because I'm a narcissist?'

Guess what he said back?

'Fair enough.'

Then a while later of me not replying, he sent a ':)'.


Fucking FUCKER. Little poof.

Day 114/367

I fell asleep in Maths today and started dreaming. Fun times.

Brinley neglected me all night at the youth cafe. I'm not being oversensative because Shannon noticed it too. He only came and talked to me about 3 times unless I went over and talked to him. Unhappy about that. But I do feel guilty because his douche of a mum is being horrible to him at the moment.

My brown contacts came today and apparently they look creepy. They look natural in some darker photos though so it's ok. Happy days happy days! Exam stresssss!

Day 93/367

Today was super. We went to the Youth Cafe and Brinley was there. We kissed like LOADS and we went outside and I said I had a stiff nip and he felt my boob and said yes you do and got a boner. I think he's got a big shlong.

Oh god. I totally said something I shouldn'tve. We were arguing over which shag band I should snap (there was options of Blue- BJ and Black-sex) and STUPIDLY I said 'I'm happy with anything'.

Oh dear.

I'm not realy for shegs with him. After 1 week? No way. Maybe a BJ at most. See what happens on Saturday when I go round to his house....dundundun!

Day 79/367

I got hit on by a girl. It was very, very strange.

I went to a youth cafe and met a load of people but I was really awkward because I didn't know a lot of them. I seen my friend and her boyfriend kissing and felt very jealous.

Tomorrow's red nose day and I'm going as a scene kid! woowoowoo!